I fear if I did stay here that I would go mad. Not in the way that you think. There is someone I love very much back in my world. If I chose to remain, I would be parted from him. The longing and knowing that I could never go back to there would cause me to be UPSET. Even if I am to be buried in the ground. Even if I will be dead in that world. Even if my last moments is just seconds away should they return me. I would be happy because it is in that world that he is, and where he will always be. My spirit, my life, my essence will be in that place for all time mingling with his through the ether of time.
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i wish we could choose not to go back. like - and know it's going to hold, instead of wondering whether or not the techs will send us back anyway
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You want to stay here?
I fear if I did stay here that I would go mad. Not in the way that you think. There is someone I love very much back in my world. If I chose to remain, I would be parted from him. The longing and knowing that I could never go back to there would cause me to be UPSET. Even if I am to be buried in the ground. Even if I will be dead in that world. Even if my last moments is just seconds away should they return me. I would be happy because it is in that world that he is, and where he will always be. My spirit, my life, my essence will be in that place for all time mingling with his through the ether of time.
I have a lot of feelings tonight.
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[ with the feelings, not... been to his world. still, his reasoning is definitely something she can respect. ]
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So, all I am is sick in the head.
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that means i was sick in the head for years.
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But even so, even I know that it's wrong to compare the pain that I feel with others. It's unfair.
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you were murdered too?
here or back home??
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Here, too, though, but ... my feelings were already worsened by the time I got here.
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i just don't meet very many people who kicked it back home, is all.
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Death is so horrifyingly beautiful.